Lost in Translation

Most of the current round of writing is done and delivered now, except for one project that’s giving me trouble.  Yesterday, I gave it up and escaped to Ryerson Woods to document the show, and realized that (though I’ll still make a page) it’s going to be a very unsatisfactory, anemic collection of images on a web page; photos don’t at all translate the highly interactive experience, the essence of being there.

Then I spent a couple of hours walking the trails, clearing and cleaning my brain and myself, letting the calligraphy of trees, the drama of omnipresent lifecycles, the curiosity of critters, and the swelling symphony of scents do the profound, simultaneously exciting and peaceful things they do for me.  I tried to think of ways to put that in words, and realized: I can’t.  Some of what I experience comes through in my work, imperfectly; it is its source, and that will have to do.

 I spent some time with the farm animals as well, particularly enjoying the company of two fat, bright-eyed, short-legged, mischievious wee pygmy goats: comedians.

It was a numbing week: dealing with volumes of pesky details, wrestling with the writing, internally questioning a great deal, looking at things I’ve too long avoided confronting (yet reaching no conclusions); becoming incredibly upset and angry over the systematic attacks on the Occupy movements (mitigated only somewhat by the response at the Brooklyn Bridge), and too many bouts of insomnia…an uncomfortable, deadening sludge. The only time I felt alive, wholly present in my body and in time was during those few hours communing with trees and little goats.  There’s something wrong with this picture, or at least its proportions.

Definitely I feel far, far removed from things like this (I forget what I originally sold these for; I gave most of them to friends) or this (Zia is mentioned in ArtNow.  I’m glad they’re going, and that they’re happy, but it would be a zombie nightmare for me).

5 thoughts on “Lost in Translation

  1. Well written, honest, worthy.

    And the HABITAT RESTORATION AREA – PLEASE DO NOT ENTER made me laugh, because we all need this promised restoration denied us.

  2. Oh, it does. So don’t worry too much about the translation. I only wish more people spent more time with trees and wee animals (and also BIG animals, bigger than us).

  3. aimee’s right about the animals. but my walk in the adirondack forest preserve yesterday was restorative. absolutely. and when i got back home, things were, if not resolved, in porportion.

  4. FWIW, pygora fibre (from the wee goaties) is a dream to spin.

    As you’ve observed, goats have a sense of humour — that’s one of the things I like about them — especially those with a specific “job” (fibre, milk, meat). Smart little buggers too….

    Love your walk: I finally went out for a bit of a stroll this afternoon once the temperature warmed up and the wind dropped, and I achieved much in the way of packing/sorting/tossing before heading off. Good for the mind and soul, especially when there’s a wee dram or three waiting at home. 🙂

  5. Thanks, all…for some reason, comments have stopped coming to me by e-mail (they go into spam or are simply not delivered at all) so it takes me a few days to see them.

    Smith: Thanks…I loved that sign that afternoon: summed it all up :-).

    Aimee, Velma, Linda: I’m glad you all got out as well!

    If I had room, I’d have a couple of pygmy goats around…the way these two played reminded me of the Shetland ponies I helped tend when I was a ‘kid’ myself. If I’d been wearing a hat (and if they could reach it) I’m positive they would have stolen it just to make me chase them.

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